lala karaoke

lepas balik dr kerja aku trus mandi (kena hujan). sejooknya.huhu.. dah segar skit aku baring2 sambil baca 'readers digest' terbaru.pastu gelap ku rasa..tiba-tiba bunyi siren aku dengar. cits bunyi alarm hp aku rupanya..yess, kul 7pm rupany,my fav drama dah start kat ch18.. Best oh citer ni,mengisahkan sorg awek yg menyamar jadi boy semata-mata nak bersama ngn sorg boy yg diminatinya..kalu tak silap aku pelakon ni dr group S.H.E..aku memang minta giler kat dia ni..cute tomboy getoo..hehehe..

lawak btul bila tomboy ni btul2 disangka lelaki oleh pelajar lelaki kolej tu. Pastu diminati oleh lelaki gay getoo..memang cute pun..

sedang asyik menonton sambil gelak ketawa ngn housemate aku, tiba2 je hp bunyi..ishh..kaco btul la..rupa2nya member ofis nak ajak g karaoke. so kitorang pun ok ja,lama benar tak melalak.sambil2 melepas tension.mmm..sejak dari hari khamis lagi aku rasa sgt down. sedih sgt sehingga tak tau nk luahkan. Kalu bukan dgn tugas2 ofis dan luar yg maha hebat sejak dua menjak ni. dah lama aku tunggang langgang.aku rasa buat masa ini bukan masa yg sesuai utk aku komitmen ngn someone,trutama yg jauh di mata (jauh di mata jauh di hati, i guess).

berbalik pada karaoke...mmm..best gak menyumbangkan suara yg sedia sumbang ni..ehek..

Kira-kira kul 9pm aku,hsmate dan kawannya, dan seorg ofis mate aku sampai kat karaoke lounge motel.Kira-kira 5 minit dari rumah. Walaupun dekat aku jarang g sana. rimas dan tak bebas nak melalak sbb org kenal..malu la tu..hahaha.. sampai ja, kami trus order minuman. teh tarik panas..hahaha..oleh sebab hsmate aku ni dah biasa sgt ngan pelayan kat situ, pelayan tu layan je pesanan kami.mesti terheran-heran yg lain napa lak order minuman panas kat situ..dah sejuk tmpt tu,kenalah minum air panas.rite?hehe

oleh kerana tak ramai sgt pengunjung mlm tu,so bleh lah aku tunjuk skil menyanyi yg ntah apa2 ntah. my 1st song is 'seribu impian'..aduh! tak terangkat aku not lagu ni, terpaksalah aku yg sememangnya bersuara garau sejak dua menjak ni(sakit tekak.baru baik dari serangan batuk2 ;D) merendahkan not ala2 rock getoo..habis nyanyi semua tepuk tangan. tepuk memuji ke? tepuk menghina tu?mmm..triam je lah..trimaa kaseeyy

dah syok2 layan lagu,kami didatangi oleh bbrp mamat. mula2 tu tak kenal drg ni siapa kan? tapi oleh kerana tmpt ni dalam kawasan perumahan syarikat tmpt aku kerja, jrg org luar masuk.ni mesti org luar ni. dorang duduk sebelahan meja kami.aku malas ambik tau hal org.kawan aku sorg ni,yg amatlah peramahnya memulakan perkenalannya ngn mamat2 tu.oooo..abg2 polis..mmm..tengok macam bukan polis daerah ni.tanya punya tanya (siapa tanya siapa ni?) rupa2nya abg2 polis dari unit bom dari luar daerah.Eh!Napa plak ada kat sini?ada org nak bom kilang ke? issk.. takkanlah ada pengganas kat sini?Sini punyalah aman damai..mm..oooo..rupa2nya dorg sedang memusnahkan bom2 yg dah xpired getoo..baru kutau..

jam hampir menunjukkan jam 11pm.salah sorg abg2 polis tempatan (sabahan i guess sbb bercakap dialek sabah) menawarkan kami minuman wine..weii!kena blanja minum wine you..mula2 tu segan dan takut pun ada. mana lah tau ditaruh apa2 benda dalam minuman tu. setelah berpikir tolak bahagi campur akhirnya kami trima.oooo..red wine rupanya..rasanya masam2 manis pahit..kami minum skit ja, takut mabuk..hati2 la weii.walaupun abg2 polis.

kira2 jam 12.15am kami beredar. sakit tekak lah pulak.bestnya melalak.puas dan lega rasanya. sampai kat rumah sambung tgk tv sampai kul 1.00am..Eii!lambatlah pulak mata ni nak lelap. Esok nak g kerja la.aku capai readers digest n baca sehingga lah...gelap (tido dah)

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mmmm..hari ini aku lewat bangun skit.mujur alarm hp bunyi kuat. macam malas plak nak g kerja. oleh kerana bos takde, aku buka blog ini n....

oh ya hari ni adalah hari pertunangan adik aku dgn jejaka pilihannya.semoga berkekalan hingga ke jinjang pelamin. Lepas kerja ni aku trus balik kg. Kehadiran aku dimestikan sebagai anak sulung dlm keluarga. Eeii!malunya aku..bukannya malu sbb adik melangkah bendul, aku malu dgn pertanyaan2 pasal kawen mawen ni. aku bukannya muda lagi dah 30tahun (aiyoo kenyataan brani ni). Takkan nak bgtau kat family aku ni spesis...uuuh

Apa ada pada nama?

mmm.. artikel ini aku dapat melalui kawan sekerjaku. Entah dari mana sumber dia dapat aku pun tak tahu. Aku suka sangat pasal 'mende2' camni lagipun, hampir2 benar menggambarkan ciri2 aku. Tak sangka melalui abjad pun boleh menilai diri seseorang tu..hehe.. Which one i am? hehe..aku dan orang yg tau full name aku je yg tau.


Does your name begin with: A

U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you never pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! Intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very practical & not very emotional. Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.
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Does your name begin with: B
You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced, wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as an expression of the affection of your lover. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your expression of endearments and particular when it comes to love. You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and experiences. You are willing to experiment.
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Does your name begin with: C
You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking. You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual, needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you receive this.. You are an
Expert at controlling your desires and doing without.
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Does your name begin with: D
Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on. You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvement's, sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often with sense of humour. When people bother to look deep inside they cannot resist what they see. You are stimulated by the eccentric and unusual, having a free and open attitude. You get jealous of other people and lose your temper.
Does your name begin with: E
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion. You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. Sometimes in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)
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Does your name begin with: F
You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favorite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.
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Does your name begin with: G
You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to people.
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Does your name begin with: H
You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life, fun & everything you seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move and equally cautious in your involvement's often as you believe that you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion for life.
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Does your name begin with: I
You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new modes of expression. You bore easily and thus require adventure and change. Your commitments don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are sometimes downright lustful.
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Does your name begin with: J
You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game. You can carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long- distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to believe in love. You have a need to be nurtured deep within.
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Does your name begin with: K
You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy, sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
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Does your name begin with: L
You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your expression of love and are willing to take chances, try new sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. "You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".
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Does your name begin with: M
You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes, though, running the gamut from insatiability to boredom with the whole idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing close to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live for the moment.
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Does your name begin with: N
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.
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Does your name begin with: O
You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money and/or seeking us. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy. You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requiring the same qualities from your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone. Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in check.
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Does your name begin with: P
You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances count. Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy...a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free of hang- ups. You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things. You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.
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Does your name begin with: Q
You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and conversation to turn you on and keep you going.
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Does your name begin with: R
You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.
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Does your name begin with: S
For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind natured & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
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Does your name begin with: T
You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights & romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon. When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated & teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way. You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into great things. You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may turn out to save your life. !
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Does your name begin with: U
You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love
you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You see
romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure, excitement
freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are willing to put
others feelings above yours.
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Does your name begin with: V
You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to danger, fear & suspense.
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Does your name begin with: W
You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic, idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for your lover. You like playing love games.
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Does your name begin with: X
You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut off your mind. You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.
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Does your name begin with: Y
You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you will forget the whole thing. You want to control your relationship which doesn’t work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation. However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.
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Does your name begin with: Z
You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.

Father's Day

All 'bout my dad...

his my idol
sumber inspirasiku juga kekuatanku menempuh liku2 hidup. Juga sangat memahami aku. Keperwiraannya buatku kagum dan menjadi peganganku saat aku mengalami kekecewaan dan kegagalan. Dalam diamnya bukan bererti tak mengambil berat tapi aku tau dia seorang ayah yang penuh tanggungjawab, penyayang, sabar dan berkepimpinan.

aku anak kesayangannya, namun tak pernah berat sebelah membagi perhatian kepada semua adik2 ku. Darinya ku tau erti pengorbanan untuk sebuah keluarga, erti melepaskan keinginan sendiri demi kebahagiaan dan keperluan keluarga.

walaupun kini, ayah tak berdaya..namun, segala jerih payahmu selama ini tak kan sia-sia. Ku sedar segala tanggungjawab keluarga kini terletak di bahuku selain ibu. namun, aku tak sebegitu kuat untuk menggalas tanggungjawab itu tanpa bantuanmu, nasihatmu dan pendapatmu selain ibu.

maafkan segala kesalahanku selama ini pernah menyakiti hatimu. ketahuilah bahawa anakmu ini selalu mendoakan kesihatanmu agar cepat sembuh.

I miss u so much daddy.

Happy Father's Day

rindu?

fuh! lega bila semua kerja urgent siap harini.

mm..i miss someone..terlalu rindu sehingga terbawa-bawa mimpi. susah benar meluahkan perasaan rindu ini padanya. apa dibuatnya skrg? ok ke tak? marah ka dia padaku? ntahlah..aku jadi serba salah jadinya. sms ku pun tak dibalas. Dunno wats goin' on..

aarrgh!sakit benar menanggung rindu ini. OG..ahh!kesepian hati ini begitu menyeksakan..biarkan lah. aku sudah biasa dgn perasaan ini. entah sampai bila aku pun tak tahu..

Hari ini

Mmmhh…lama benar rasanya tak menjenguk blog kesayanganku ini. Entah tak tau nak tulis apa. Sesekali aku rindu untuk mencatat sesuatu tapi bila sudah membuka blog ini, aku jadi blur tak tau apa yg harus ku coretkan..Hari ini aku rasa terpanggil untuk mencatat sesuatu.

Terfikir aku pada insan yang pernah mengisi hati ini. Sesekali perasaan rindu menjelma tanpa diundang. Sejak akhir2 ini kami kerap berhubung sms. Walaupun aku jarang membalas smsnya kerana kredit tak berapa mengizinkan, dia sering mengirim sms mahupun mms. Minggu lalu aku cuba memberanikan diri menelefonnya. Tak sangka dia masih mesra seperti dulu dan masih memanggil aku dgn panggilan mesra kami dulu. Aku terkedu seketika, tapi mungkin itu gurauan ataupun usikannya saja. Almaklumlah dia tu peramah dan manja orangnya. Bila dah sembang2 sekejap dengannya, aku sedar perasaan lama itu sudah hilang. Yep, hilang ditelan waktu. Aku lebih suka dan selesa hubungan kami sebagai kawan.

Hari ini aku rasa sunyi sekali..kosong…tak tau kenapa. Tapi yang pasti aku masih bernafas lagi..hehehe..